So I fell apart. We went on vacation and I got sick when we returned. Started to feel better and went home on vacation again right after that. Came home and got sick again, this time really sick. But in between all of this I had some days where I felt fine and was just completely lazy when it came to working out. Honestly, this is no longer acceptable. I work until 3pm everyday and I have almost 3 hours until my fiancée comes home from work so there really is no excuse for not at LEAST going for an hour walk.
Honestly I'm fed up. I'm sick and tired of being a lazy ass. I really am not unhappy with my life or anything going on in it. I have been so happy but I have neglected myself. And yes, I have a man who loves me unconditionally but what happens if I start to not love myself because I keep doing this to myself, will he stop loving me then? Regardless, I'm doing this for me and for us. I cannot stay this unhealthy. That's all there is to it.
So I've decided to start taking small steps towards getting into shape instead of going full steam and quitting. I've been in shape most of my life, these last 2 years I have just fallen apart and it's not okay. The worst part about it is that I'm happy. I'm not necessarily happy with how my body looks or feels but as a whole I'm very happy and I think that's part of my obstacle in getting into shape. Plus, I've been making terrible decisions on what to eat. Candy bar here, french fries there.. I have to realize that I simply cannot eat whatever I feel like eating ALL the time. There has to be some restraint in my life, I have to control myself at times.
Although I'm still fairly sick, when I kick this I WILL start walking for an hour a day at least 5 times a week. This is an accomplishment that I know I can handle. I will workout with weights at for 30 minutes at least once a week but hopefully twice a week. I'm going to set small goals and as I attain them I will set new ones and continue to build on these small goals.
I once read someone's goals that were along the lines of each day running to a further street lamp. In most neighborhoods that's not terribly far but I understand that it's the small milestones that keep us going.
So goal #1 - Walk for an hour, 5 days a week & 30 minutes of weights at least 1 day a week.